depressing poem

Drowning

I can barely keep my head up
All I see is light and darkness
I can say that I’ve had enough
In this water it is bottomless

Swallow me into your mouth
Water closing up the gaps
Light is gone and dark is nearing
I need to breathe – take in a gasp.

Cold and darkness closing in
I am hidden so far under
As the cold clings to my skin
I can’t help but start to wonder –

“Will they find me, when I’m hidden?
Will they see that I am gone?
Will they miss me in the ocean?
Will they care that my life is done?

Will they see me, fighting, trying?
Will they notice I’m not there?
Will they miss me and start crying?
Will they know how much I fear?”

Close my eyes to all the darkness
Wishing I could keep it out
Soon I’ll see it was all a dream, yes
Forget what this was all about…

But it’s staying, and unending
Torture till the last moment
Waves will crush me, I am bending
In a second I am spent.

Fight the water’s silent choking
Cough the water from my lungs
Using my last to stop from going
I spot a board on black waves hung

Swimming now with a reason
Clinging to the splintered wood
Wish I weren’t here when this began
Wish I’d go back, if I could

Wet and water drag me under
Wood is broken by the force
Every second air is further
Every second more remorse

Here’s the end I thought would not come
All alone I die here now
Where will I go? Where can I run?
What will I say? I do not know.